Growing up, I always saw myself as the fat friend; the one that people thought was pretty in the face, but gross everywhere else. After I graduated high school I got into a serious relationship, and in turn, got comfortable. I think that is why I gained so much weight. I figured that I would never be that fat because I would get rid of the weight before it got to that point. But at what point in my weight gaining process do I say, "enough is enough"? At what point do I say, "it's time for a change"? I think that time is now. I need to stop hiding behind my weight and start taking care of myself.
So I am going to start logging on and talking about how I'm doing, and what I'm struggling with; sort of my online journal. I need to be held accountable for my actions, and this is the best way I know how to do that. I am going to start working out and eating right and making myself feel better. I am really hoping that I can stay motivated enough to just do it! I have a lot of motivation right now, and I hope I can pull that through the whole time I'm trying to get back into shape. :)
Thank you Jade for this post. I think it takes a lot of courage to post this online where anyone can read it. To be honest I have had the same sort of feelings about weight too. I lose it I gain it back. I feel motivated and then something happens and I buy pizza and 2 gallons of icecream (yep, I did that tonight even). I almost want to giggle when I write it down that way because it sounds so pathetic, but deep down it really bugs me that I can't just seem to hold myself accountable.
ReplyDeleteIf it helps, I totally believe in you! Maybe we can help keep each other motivated through our blog posts :) ps. you are NoT gross everywhere! You're a stinkin' cutie!
another ps. are you still going to school?
Sam! I am still going to school. I take classes through the University of Phoenix, and I am pretty happy with it.
ReplyDeleteAnd thank you for your comment. Sorry it took so long for me to get back to you! No one ever reads this I though, lol. So I didn't realize that you had commented on it! I think we could be great motivators for each other!